I have so much on my mind lately that I can’t sleep without the aid of 4 ibuprofen + 2 Benadryl. My brain just won’t shut off. It sure makes for a long, tiring week. Basically, I have been thinking of making a couple of huge life changes and I have been hashing things out inside my mind. A possible job change, from Missouri to Florida, is a distinct possibility, as I applied and interviewed for a spot at a Tampa law firm. I’m ready, actually MORE than ready, to leave STL for more opportunity, as well as proximity to the beach. That said, I will be leaving my sister and parents, as well as moving even farther from my daughters, and I almost feel like throwing up at that thought. However, I’m turning 55 this August 1st, and I can’t keep putting off my own dreams forever. It’s a huge risk, but to grow and to achieve more, I MUST do it. Wherever I land, it will be where I hope to retire and live out the rest of my days. I don’t want to move anymore after that, I no longer want to deal with winter snow and ice, and I want beach.
I want to live my life on my terms. I’m ready to be me.