No vodka in the house

I’ve mentioned my ongoing battle with alcohol more than once.  I’ve also mentioned how many times I’d poured booze down the drain, only to re-buy a bottle a couple of days later.

There is still no vodka in the house.

I didn’t cave in and buy it to get another $3 through my Ibotta app.

I am not going totally sober, as I have a big vacation coming up and don’t want to miss out on drinking wine by the pool.  Or a martini or 2.  I know that sounds pretty retarded, but I figured if I could taper off a bit before vacation, maybe my liver wouldn’t explode.

I know how it sounds, but I don’t care.  Just the fact that I can cut down a bit without having DT’s is a major plus.  I’m just not in the mindset to stop yet.  I want the freedom to choose IF and WHEN I want to drink.

Maybe someday I will get my head together and quit all together.  I highly doubt it, though.  It’s really my only vice – I don’t smoke (maybe 1 cigarette every couple of months), I don’t gamble, I watch what I eat (Keto diet), and I haven’t had sex in so long that I believe I have become a virgin again.  Ok, well, maybe not.  I’m definitely not pure as the driven snow by any stretch of the imagination, and the only “bad” thing that I do is drink.  Many times past the point of good sense, but whatever.

For right now, I’m being good.

In 8 more days, once I hit the Florida sand, all bets are off.